Master's Thoughts

My slave and I have been together for over four years now. I love her and she loves me. This blog gives a pretty accurate reading as to who she is.

For the record, I believe that slave k is an amazing young woman. She is gorgeous. Her beauty speaks for itself, but she is so much more than a beautiful face and a toned and fit body. She has talent. smarts, values, and character, which actually transcend her physical beauty. .

My slave is a complex person with emotional ups and downs - highs and lows. My slave can be defiant, frustrating, argumentative, belligerent, disobedient, and difficult to live with. She also can be charming, delightful, respectful, thoughtful, compliant, and easy to live with.

Slave k has endured many physical and emotional traumas during her young life which have left psychological scars, We are dealing with them systematically. If you read this blog carefully, you will get a glimpse of the beautiful young woman I love so dearly - the young woman I call my Erotic Trophy Slave.

Evening Report

Master ordered that this slave complete 2 enemas and the STP with a vibrator in her cunt and ass.

This slave started by preparing a 2L enema of warm water, this slave then took the entire enema in her ass and used to large plug to hold it in.

This slave then assumed the SNSC- Stretched Nipple, Spread Cunt- position with the NS on her nipples at 925. This slave maintained this painful squatting position for 30 minutes before releasing the enema.

This slave then prepared a 2L enema of cold water, this slave then took the entire enema in her ass, inserted the large butt plug, and held in the enema in the SNSC position with the NS on at 940.

This slave completed her evening suffering session by spending 30 minutes in the STP position with a vibrator in her cunt and ass and weights on her very sore nipples.

Morning Report for 4-28-13

Master does not think that this slave posts in her blog nearly enough and has ordered that this slave post her morning report for today along with her other reports to him which have already been posted.

Below is this slave's morning report for the day:

Good afternoon again My Darling Master and Owner,

Your slave girl got up this morning and released herself from her bindings and removed the nipple clamps, and the vibrators Master.
 
Your slave then crawled to the bathroom and relieved herself in position 3 Master.

Your slave girl then weighed herself Master. Your slave weighs 109 even this morning Master. Your slave then spent time in prayer Master.

Your slave girl then dressed in a 2 inch leather slave collar, tit cuffs, Zoe, the y chain, a tight top, a hot vibe in her ass and cunt, a well lubed cunt chain, hot pants, hose, anklets and sneex Master. Your slave girl then went on an erotic 4 mile jog Master. Your slave did not cum during the jog Master even though you had granted your slave the ability to Master because she failed you last night Master.

Your slave then returned home and took a cold shower before dressing in a 2 inch leather slave collar, tits cuffs, Zoe, the cincher, hose and heels Master. Your slave girl coated all of her sensitive areas in WB Master and slid a hot vibe in her ass and cunt once again Master.

Your slave then knelt with knees spread wide, tits pressed tightly to the tile, back arched, ass high, arms stretched out in front of her Master. Your slave girl meditated on being the best slave possible for you Master.

Your slave girl then got the cock she has set aside for mouth soapings and liberally coated it in liquid soap and slid it into her mouth. Your slave used her tongue and mouth to clean off the soapy cock Master, your slave kept it in her mouth for 5 minutes and then removed it and coated it in soap once more Master, your slave repeated this 5 times before she felt her mouth had been adequately cleansed Master.

Your slave girl then attached the NS to her nipples at 900 Master and knelt in front of her mirror with knees spread wide, tits presented and eyes averted Master, your slave girl meditated on absolute obedience and submission this morning Master.

Your slave then moved to her bed to perform ritual #1 Master. Your slave girl practiced begging aloud and envisioned you fucking her hard while in this position Master.

Your slave girl then removed the NS and knelt in front of her mirror once again Master. Your slave girl gave her nipples a harsh scrubbing and workout and then reassumed the KMP Master and recited the phrases for ritual 2 Master.

Your slave finished her morning routine with a 20 minute trying ballet routine.

With love and devotion, your ets, Krissie

P.S. More notes to come Master

Punishment for Being Bratty All Week

This slave was very bratty and disobedient all week and yesterday Master got to his wits end with this slave and ordered that she self punish, however, this slave was defiant and refused to self-punish as he directed.

As a result, this slave self-punished today, much more harshly than this slave would have been required to if she had done so when Master ordered her to yesterday.

Below is this slave's report to Master on her self-punishment session today:

Good afternoon again Master,

After your slave girl had breakfast this morning Master, she started in on her much deserved punishment session Master.

Your slave girl started the session by spanking each nipple 150 times Master, your slave girl then held each nipple between two cubes of ice for 10 minutes Master, your slave then submerged each tit in a bowl of ice for 15 minutes Master. Your slave girl then spanked each nipple 100 times Master, your slave girl held each nipple between two cubes of ice for 5 minutes Master and submerged each tit in a bowl of ice for 10 minutes Master.

Your slave girl then caned each of her tits 100 times Master, leaving 85 welts on each tit Master.

Your slave then caned each sore nipple 20 times Master.

Your slave coated the welts on her tits in hot cream and healing cream Master.

Your slave girl then turned her attention to her ass Master. Your slave girl caned each ass cheek 200 times Master leaving 175 welts on each cheek Master. Your slave coated all the welts in hot cream and healing cream Master.

Your slave girl then fucked her sore ass hard for 20 minutes Master with a cock in her mouth and a vibrator in her cunt without cumming Master.

Your slave then gave herself a painful enema Master using glycerol and peppermint oil Master. Your slave plugged her ass and dressed in a 2 inch leather slave collar, very short, tight and pretty sheer dress and 6 inch heels Master and went for a walk around the block Master, after walking for 20 minutes, your slave released the enema behind a bush and then returned home Master.

Your slave girl then turned her attention to her inner thighs Master. Your slave girl caned each inner thigh 60 times Master leaving 45 welts on each Master and coated the welts in hot cream and healing cream Master.

Your slave girl then placed the NS on her very sore nipples at 925 Master and placed ice in her cunt and ass Master and performed a 30 minute ballet boot model walk Master.

I know I didn't perform the exact punishment session as you wrote it Master, but I felt that my changes made it more painful Master.

I hope you are pleased Master. If not, please punish me again Master

with love, your ets, Beauty

Punishment For Failing the Overnight Task

This slave tried very hard to complete the task that she had begged her Master for last night, but unfortunately this slave got very cold during the night and snuggled up with a blanket.

As such, this slave had to be punished for her disobedience.

Master ordered that this slave visit a local erotic clothing and sex toy shop wearing a pair of "fuck me" black heels, cunt high hose, a tight blouse and a, "shorter the better", leather skirt under which you will wear a vibrating butt plug liberally lubed with WB.

Since this slave is not allowed to wear panties and Master did not allow this slave to wear her cunt chain, this slave would be forced to keep pushing to plug up her ass using her hands for anyone around to see.

Master ordered that this slave purchase a "slave" collar while at the shop.

Below is this slave's report to her Master on this punishment:

Good afternoon again Master,

Since your slave failed you last night Master, your slave had to complete the Chateau punishment Master.

Your slave girl dressed in a 2 inch leather slave collar, Zoe, a tight white blouse, a very short leather skirt, cunt high hose, black 6 inch fuck me heels, and a vibrating hot bp Master.

Your slave girl then visited the Chateau Master, every time your slave had to push the plug back in Master she made sure she was in sight of someone and bent over so her ass welts were on display as she pushed the plug back in Master.

As ordered Master, your slave purchased a "slave" collar

with love, your ets, Beauty

Overnight Task

This slave was disobediant, defiant, moody, argumentative,etc. yesterday and needed to be severely punished.

Before going to bed, this slave begged Master to force this slave to sleep in the closet, naked and bound with a vibrator in her cunt and no permission to cum. This slave also begged Master to force her to go to sleep with a full bladder and asked to be allowed to sleep on a towel in the event that she was unable to control her bladder during the night. This slave also begged Master to sleep without the light on and using only one pillow and one blanket. This slave begged Master to punish her severely if she were to in anyway fail him during the night.

Below is this slave's report to her Master this morning regarding the task:

Good afternoon to you My Darling Master and Owner,

Your slave girl tried very hard not to fail you last night Master, but unfortunately in end, your slave girl got very cold and was unable to stay without a blanket all night long Master.

Your slave did however sleep with her ankles, knees and thighs bound together Master and the ankle binding was pulled through the back her cunt chain Master.

Your slave bound her hands together in the front using a pair of hobble so she could keep one hand on her nipples and one hand on her cunt as directed Master and the chain between the cuffs was pulled through the front of her cunt chain Master.

Your slave wore a harsh pair of nipple clamps with the chain threaded through the ring in the front of her 2 inch collar Master.

Your slave had hot vibrators in her ass and cunt set to low Master, and a very full bladder.

Your slave wore a gag and blindfold also Master.

Your slave slept on two towels as directed Master, however, your slave made it through the night without pissing or cumming Master.

Your slave also slept in her dark closet with the blindfold on all night Master.

When your slave needed a blanket she inched herself across the closet floor, still chained and blindfolded to the corner where she stores extra blankets. Your slave cuddled with the blankets for warmth Master and lost the use of her pillow in the process Master.

More notes to come Master

with love, your ets, Beauty

Evening Task

This evening Master had his slave perform the STP position, aka the spread the pain position.

Master did not tell his slave which version of the STP she was to use, so this slave decided to use the stretched version since this slave has been exceedingly defiant today and the stretched position is more difficult to maintain.

This slave place the titty tower on her nipples at a tension of 900 and placed a vibrating butt plug coated with tiger balm in her ass, this slave also placed a vibrator in her cunt.

This slave then laid across a small table and assumed the stretched STP position and held it for 30 minutes.

This slave is very grateful to her Master for giving her this task.

A Day of Suffering

I was a very direspectful, disobedient, and nondeferential slave yesterday and as such, I had to be punished.

Below are my written reports recounting my suffering for my Master:

Good morning My Darling Master,

Your slave girl got up this morning and performed her normal morning toilet routine Master. Your slave girl weighs 110 even this morning Master. Your slave girl then spent time in prayer Master.
 

Your slave girl then dressed in a leather collar, Zoe, the Y chain, a tight bra with nipple holes, a tight top, hot creamed bw balls and anal egg, a well lubed cunt chain, hot pants, hose, anklets and sneex Master. Your slave girl then went on a 4 mile, erotic jog Master.

 

 

Your slave then returned home and took a cold shower before dressing in a 2 inch leather collar, Zoe, a tight cincher, hose and heels Master.

Your slave coated all of her sensitive areas in wb.

Your slave then proffered homage for 30 minutes with her tits pressed tightly to the tile, knees spread wide, back arched, ass high, arms stretched out in front of her Master. Your slave meditated on being the best ETS possible for you Master.

Your slave girl then attached the NS to her nipples at 500 Master and attached pins to her tongue and cunt lips Master.


Your slave girl then knelt in front of her mirror with knees spread wide, tits presented and eyes averted Master.


Your slave girl then meditated on keeping a civil tongue and a deferential mindset at all times Master.

Your slave then tightened the NS to 600 Master and moved to her bed to perform ritual #1 with legs spread wide and her cunt lips held open, your slave used the pins on her cunt lips to hold them open to add pain to the experience Master, and to remind your slave that she is doing it for your pleasure not her own.

Your slave then practiced begging aloud and envisioned you fucking her hard for your pleasure Master.

Your slave girl then removed the NS and the pins on her tongue and cunt lips Master and knelt in front of her mirror once again Master, your slave girl refreshed the WB on her sensitive areas Master and then gave her nipples a thorough scrubbing with wb and a tooth brush Master before giving them a harsh workout Master.

Your slave girl finished her morning routine with a trying ballet workout Master.

Your slave then added cuffs to her tits Master and had breakfast from her bowls Master.

After breakfast your slave girl added hobbles to her ankles Master and took her first enema of the day, a cold enema. Your slave girl held it for 20 minutes in the SNSC positiion Master, which was no easy endeavor with her ankles hobbled Master.

Once releasing the enema, your slave proffered homage to you once again Master, which was quite uncomfortable with her tits cuffed Master and meditated on being the best ETS possible for you Master.

With love, your ETS, Beauty

 

 

Good afternoon Master,

After your slave girl sent her last note, she spanked each nipple 100 times harshly with a hair brush Master.


Your slave girl then caned each ass cheek 125 times, leaving 100 welts on each Master.


Your slave then caned each inner thigh 40 times Master, leaving 30 welts on each Master.

Your slave girl then took another enema, a warm enema this time Master, and held it for 30 minutes in the SNSC position Master, again it was difficult to do so with the ankle hobbles Master, and wearing the tit cuffs enhances the pressure on your slave's nipples from the nipple stretcher Master.

Your slave then proffered homage again for 30 minutes Master, again meditating on being the best ETS possible for you Master.

Your slave then took a 30 minute ballet boot model walk Master with a hot vibe in her cunt and ass Master.

Your slave then had lunch from her bowls Master.

with love, your ets, Beauty

 

 

 

Good afternoon Master,

Your slave girl has taken the third enema now Master and held it again for 30 minutes in the SNSC position Master, and you slave wore a pin on her tongue during that time also Master.

Your slave then proffered homage again for 30 minutes Master and focused on being the best ETS possible Master.

with love, your ETS, Beauty

Phrases for Ritual #2

As promised in a previous blog, below are the phrases that I repeat each morning as ritual #2 in my morning routine to honor my Master:

This slave is beautiful in face and form

This slave has a great body and will keep it fit to please this slave’s Master

This slave is compliant and obedient in this slave’s submission to her Master

This slave suffers stoically and willingly at her Master’s hand

This slave has given her mind and body to this slave’s chosen Master and Owner

This slave’s Master adores her and loves her to the core

This slave's Master holds this slave's mind, body and heart in His hands and protects her in loving care.

Love Letter

Below is a letter that I wrote to my love and Master to express my deepest feelings for him:
 

Good evening My Dearest Richard,

I have just read over all of the material on my registration page and have reminisced about the wonderful and difficult journey we have endured together. Our life together has not been an easy one, there have been many boulders and twists and turns along the road, but each hurdle has only strengthened our love and devotion to one another.

I have grown so much as a person and a submissive over the last 3 years. You have helped me open up and overcome so much that I would have never been able to overcome had I not met you. You encourage me to reach my full potential, and without your love, support and encouragement, I would not be the woman that I am today. I would most likely be a college drop-out.

Each day that I spend with you only makes me love you more, even though at times you drive me crazy. My every waking moment is consumed with thoughts of you: how to please you, how to manage my life outside of you in order to maximize our time together, how to ensure that you never have any desire to even take a second glace at another woman.

My greatest desire in life is to spend the rest of your life with you, in whatever manner possible. My ultimate fantasy is to one day become your wife and express my love for you in the most physical way possible. I am certain that once I have been in your arms I will never want to be anywhere else.

I face extensive criticism from my family, specifically my siblings, on a regular basis because of our relationship, but it does not matter. The only opinion that matters to me is yours, as long as you are pleased with what we have together, I will be happy.

However, I am not a strong woman Richard, my fears and insecurities are at times all consuming, especially my fear that one day my moodswings will become too much for you, that you'll decide that the bad in me outweighs the good and you will move on to greener pastures. I wish that I weren't plagued with self-doubt and the feeling that I am damaged goods, but I am. I never feel, and have never felt, that I am good enough for you. I feel blessed each and every day to have you, I feel that you are settling with me.

I never imagined that it was possible to love another person as much as I love you, Richard. I never imagined that I could feel such a deep and lasting connection to another person after all that I have been through in my life. Truth be told, I never imagined that anyone would love me.

My greatest regret in life is that I am not as submissive as you'd like me to be, nor as submissive as I'd like to be. I hate myself for holding back and being unable to give you the deepest level of submission that you desire and deserve. I want so badly to be the woman that you want me to be, to be the submissive that you want me to be.

I want to please you and bring pride and honor to you in all that I do. I never want to disappoint you, but then I find myself doing these stupid things that I know are going to disappoint you greatly (i.e drinking a whole bottle of wine and flirting). For the longest time I did not believe it when you said that I do these things to test your love for me, but now I know that it's true. I do these stupid and self-defeating things to prove to myself that no batter how bad I am, you are here for the long haul. On a deep subconscious level, I need that regular reassurance. and I fear that because I need that, these foolish actions will continue and what I fear even more is that one day they will drive you away.

That said, tonight I want to recommit myself to you, mind, body, heart and soul. I feel that I have not been putting my best submissive foot forward recently. I feel that I have been doing the bare minimum and that I need to do much better. I need to beg to suffer more often, I need to demonstrate my submission and devotion to you more regularly.

The most important thing that I need to do, is to be more supportive of your training of Faye and to do everything that I can to help you train her and to help her become the submissive woman that she wants to be. I have to put my jealousy and fears aside, and allow my submissive persona and heart to lead the way.

I also need to stop putting off your orders, even if it is not something that I really want to do, because what matters is not what I want, but what you want. I am YOUR slave, YOUR property, and I have willingly given myself to you to control and to Own.

I need to remember that while the task may seem trivial to me, it is what you want, and that is all that really matters.

with love and renewed devotion, Your Beauty 

Forever Love

My Master has recently began to train a new submissive, and that submissive told him that she loved him, even though I know that he loves me and is devoted to me, I couldn't help but feel jealous and expressed that jealousy to him.

Below is his response to my jealousy, and it warmed my heart

Oh, Darling;, haven't I told you that I love you because you are you, that no one can steal my heart from you?. No one will ever be "first" again other than you. Haven't I proved faithful to you for almost 4 years?

Don't do this to yourself - trust me... have confidence in my commitment to you. Know that our love is special and sacred.

I need to know that I can tell you these things without you getting freaked out.

Rest easy in my love and devotion to you, Beauty

Your Devoted Master and Dedicated Owner, Richard

Morning Report

Below is a copy of my morning report to My Master for today.

Each day, I start the day by weighing myself and reporting that weight to my Master. Master expects that I will always weigh between 110 and 112. Currently, I am below the weight that my Master expects me to be, and he is not pleased. If I do not gain the weight back soon enough I know that I can expect to be punished daily until I reach my weight goal.

After weighing myself. I spend time in prayer. Generally thanking God for blessing me with such a loving, caring and amazing Master, not to mention domineering when he needs to be.

The next step in my morning ritual is to prepare myself. Master expects that I will always wear my nipple shields, Y chain and cunt chain on my jog as he has ordered, but I often spice it up and add hot cream coated ben wa balls and a vibrating anal egg, to make the jog more interesting and to encourage me to increase my timing. I usually jog between 3 and 4 miles per day.

My outward jogging outfit always consists of a t shirt, hot pants, hose, anklets and sneex unless it is very cold outside, and then Master may allow me to wear sweats, but his preference is hot pants so that I will attract attention and because he just likes to see me in hot pants.

Once I return home from my jog, Master expects that I will take a cold shower to wash off the sweat and cool my libido before starting on my morning rituals for my Master.

The first ritual that I perform each day for my Master is the homage ritual to bring honor and respect to my Master, and to spend time meditating on how to be the best slave possible for my Master. This ritual requires that I kneel with my knees spread wide, press my tits tightly to the tile, arch my back getting my ass high in the air and stretch my arms out in front of me. I am required to stay in this position for 15 to 20 minutes as I meditate on my submission.

After I complete this ritual, I move on to the kneeling meditation ritual. For this ritual, I remove my nipple shields, and attach the nipple stretcher to my nipples at a tightness of between 450 and 550 depending on how sore my nipples are from previous suffering for my Master. Once I have attached the NS to my nipples, I kneel in front of my full length mirror with my knees spread wide, holding my tits up for my Master's pleasure and inspection and my eyes averted. As I remain in this position, I meditate once more on my submission and on what I need to do that day to please my Master to the best of my abilities.

Once I have finished the kneeling meditation ritual, I crawl to my bed and lay down on it. I then tighten the NS by 50 to 100 turns before spreading my legs wide and holding my cunt lips open for my Master's viewing pleasure and to offer my cunt to him for his use. I practice begging aloud while in this position, and often envision my Master fucking me even if he doesn't.

After completion of this ritual, I remove the nipple stretcher and once again kneel in front of my mirror, this time with a toothbrush and a tube of hot cream. I begin by twisting, pinching and pulling my nipples to further sensitive after their stretching, I then brush my nipples with a tooth brush and hot cream for my Master's pleasure.

After completion of these tasks, I assume the kneeling meditation position and repeat the required phrases for ritual #2 which I will post in a later entry.

My morning routine ends by performing a ballet workout to keep my body flexible and toned for my Master.

Morning Report for 12/09/2012:

Good morning My Darling Master,

Your slave girl got up this morning and performed her normal morning toilet routine, your slave girl weighs 108 even this morning Master. Your slave girl then spent time in prayer Master.

Your slave then dressed in a one inch leather slave collar, Zoe, the y chain, a tight bra with nipple holes, a top, hot creamed bw balls and anal egg, a well lubed cunt chain, hot pants, hose, anklets and sneex. Your slave then went on a long, erotic 4 mile jog Master.

Your slave girl then returned home and took a cold shower before dressing in a two inch leather slave collar, Zoe, the cincher, hose and heels. Your slave girl coated all of her sensitive areas in hot cream, including her welts, and then placed a hot bp in her cunt and ass Master.

Your slave then proffered homage to you Master with knees spread wide, tits pressed tightly to the tile, back arched, ass high, arms stretched out in front of her Master. Your slave girl meditated on being serene and happy in your love for her Master for 30 minutes.

Your slave then attached the NS to her nipples at 550 and moved to the kneeling meditation ritual in front of her mirror Master. Your slave attached a pin to her tongue and pins to her cunt lips and clit as well Master, just to add to the submissive experience Master. Your slave meditated on always being the best slave possible for you My Darling Master.

Your slave then tightened the NS to 600 and moved to her bed to perform ritual #1 with legs spread wide and cunt lips pulled open for your pleasure using the pins on her cunt lips Master. While your slave girl would not enjoy performing this ritual every day with the pins in place it does add an extra erotic edge to the experience Master.

Your slave practiced begging aloud and envisioned you fucking her solely for your pleasure in said position Master.

Your slave girl then knelt in front of her mirror once more, removed the NS and pins and gave her nipples a harsh workout and scrubbed them with a tooth brush and hot cream Master. Your slave greatly enjoys performing this task for you Master.

Your slave then recited the phrases for ritual #2 Master while presenting her tits to you for your pleasure Master.

Your slave completed her morning routine with a difficult and gratifying ballet workout Master.

 

Your Beauty

Suffering Saturday

Below is a report detailing a recent day of suffering for the sole purpose of pleasing my Master.

Good evening Master,

Your slave girl has lots to report Master.

Your slave dressed in a leather collar, shields, a shelf bra, a tight silk blouse, a short leather skirt, LD, vibrating bp, cunt chain, hose and heels and went to visit Andrew Master. Your slave girl allowed Andrew to run his hands up and down her legs as she tried on 5 pairs of shoes Master. Your slave did not find any shoes that she had to have Master, so your slave did not buy today. As always, it was a humiliating and erotically invigorating experience Master.

Your slave returned home and stripped down to her collar, shields, cincher, hose and heels and pissed into a bowl Master, your slave then took the bowl into the shower and poured it over her head Master. Your slave stood there for 10 minutes before stripping and taking a cold shower Master.

Once your slave finished her shower, she put her hands in self release handcuffs in the front while she handwashed the cincher and hose Master.

Once your slave had finished handwashing the items, 15 minutes had elapsed so your slave switched the cuffs to behind her back and knelt in front of her mirror with knees spread wide and eyes averted Master.

Once the 15 minutes had finished, your slave gave herself a cold enema and held it for 25 minutes in the SNSC position with the NS on at 450 Master. It was difficult to maintain the position Master, as your slave had a vibrator in her cunt and a vibrating plug in her ass Master. Once the 25 minutes were up, your slave released the enema, and then gave herself a luke warm enema, tightened the NS to 575 and held it for 25 minutes in the SNSC position with a vibe in her cunt and ass Master.

Your slave then released the second enema, and cleaned up the bathroom Master. Your slave then removed the NS and slipped into her ballet boots Master, your slave slipped ice into her cunt and ass Master and performed a 45 minute ballet boot model walk Master. Your slave's legs were very sore by the time she finished.

Your slave then took a break until it was time for the game to start Master. Before the game started, your slave cuffed her wrists and ankles together, put biters on her cunt lips and ran the chain connecting her wrists and ankles through the chain between the biters Master, your slave then place a vibrator in her cunt and ass and waited for the game to start Master. Your slave girl watched the entire first quarter Master, turning on the cunt vibrator when PSU had possession of the ball and the anal vibrator when OSU had possession of the ball. Your slave was sorely disappointed that PSU did not score in the first quarter. Your slave's cunt lips were sore at that point so she untethered herself, coated her cunt lips in healing cream and moved on to other tasks.

Your slave girl took a walk outside wearing a leather collar, cincher, hose, heels and a long t shirt Master. Your slave walked around her entire neighborhood and when she got back into her own yard, stepped behind a bush, squatted and pissed Master.

with love and devotion, your ets, Beauty

The Diaper Humiliation Tasks

A few days ago my Master sent me on a series of tasks that would become a few of the most humiliating yet erotic tasks in my life.

My Master sent me to the mall dressed as his baby. He put my hair in pig tails, placed me in a diaper, bound my tits, and dressed me in a top, skirt, knee high socks and sneakers. He placed a pacifier on a ribbon around my neck and ordered me to suck on it occasionally.

The first task my Master gave me was to go to a specialty baby store and ask a store clerk if they had any diapers that would fit me. I was so humiliated as I walked up to an attractive male clerk only a few years older than myself and asked him if they carried any diapers that would fit me. He looked me up and down, it was quite obvious he thought I was crazy, but led me over to the diaper section and handed me a package of Goodnites. It was so humiliating to be standing in the middle of a store that specializes in baby items, dressed as a baby, and holding a package of diapers. My cunt was leaking copiously into my diaper. I quickly purchased the diapers and carried them out of the store without a bag.

I had been getting quite a lot of attention dressed as I was before I purchased the diapers, but now that I was walking around the mall dressed as a baby and carrying diapers for the world to see, I was getting a lot more attention which only served to increase my humiliation and make my cunt flow even more.

I slipped the pacifier into my mouth and sucked on it as I walked through the mall to the shoe store to complete my next task. When I arrived at the shoe store, I removed the pacifier from my mouth and found my favorite shoe salesman, Andrew (it should be noted that Andrew is aware of the nature of my relationship with Master, and has been involved in previous humiliation tasks.) Once I found Andrew, I told him that my Master had sent me for a different purpose this time. I then told him that I was wearing a diaper and that my Master wished for him to watch and feel the diaper as I wet myself, if he were interested in doing so. He seemed more than happy to oblige my humiliating request and led me to a far corner of the store, away from everyone else. I sat down and he knelt down in front of me and stuck his hand under my skirt.

It was difficult for me to start pissing at first as I was so humiliated, but then I envisioned my Master ordering me to piss, and the piss starting flowing. Andrew pushed his fingers into me through the diaper as I pissed. Having the wet diaper pressed up against me by his fingers was also humiliating for me, and again served to make my cunt grow wetter. I was quite desperate to cum at this point, but my Master had not given me permission to do so, so I was not allowed to. Once Andrew had had his fill, he removed his hand from underneath my skirt. However, my humiliation with him was not yet over, as I was preparing to leave he noticed the diapers I had brought with me for the first time and asked me if I needed a change, loud enough for several other customers to hear him, I blushed beet red and fled from the store.

I wanted to leave the mall and go home at this point, but I still had one last task to complete, and I just knew that it would be the most humiliating one of the day. I made my way to the nearest ladies room. My heart sank when I found it to be filled with women, I had been hoping to only have to humiliate myself in front of one or two women, but there were at least 5 women in the restroom, but I had a task to complete no matter how humiliating it was for me.

I started by opening the package of diapers and removing one, I then lifted my skirt and removed the wet diaper in front of everyone. 5 women got a clear view of my cunt and my slave registration number. As quickly as possible, I rediapered myself. As if this task were not humiliating enough in and of itself, while I was changing myself a woman had walked in and as I was about to leave, she asked me why I was wearing diapers and why I was dressed the way I was. I was humiliated beyond belief at this point. My mind raced as I decided on what to tell this woman, I could have walked out without answering her, but I knew that my Master would not be pleased with me if I did that. In the end, I told her that I was my Master’s babydoll for the day. She muttered “freak” under her breath and I fled from the store.

Even though the tasks were very humiliating, my cunt was soaking wet by the time I left. I was also proud of myself because I knew that I had done well and that my Master would be pleased with me.

My 28th Anniversary with Master

Today, my Master and I celebrate 28 months together as Master and slave.
I believe that every moment that I get to spend with Master is a blessing, and celebrating our love and devotion to one another only once a year doesn't seem enough, so I have asked Master to allow us to celebrate once a month, and he has acquiesced to my romantic frivolities. He is such a wonderful man.

Below is a copy of the card I sent to my Master today in honor of our anniversary:

Happy Anniversary My Darling Master and Owner

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My Darling Master, We have reached another milestone in our journey together. This month has been very rocky and tumultuous but we seem to have recovered well and found our footing again, it just goes to show that with enough love and determination and effort, we can overcome almost anything. Things are so much better when we are in harmony with one another. Every day we have together is a blessing, but every peaceful day we have together is a double blessing. You complete me Master, I truly believe that you are my soulmate. I need you as my Master, and I need to be your slave. I love being your slave Master, and I hope that today I will once again earn the honor of being your highly esteemed trophy slave. Remember always My Darling Master, that I love you and am completely devoted to you. I trust you, I respect you, I want and need you as a part of my life. I rely on you heavily. You are my entire world. You are the love of my life, my very best friend, my confidante, my lover, my sounding board, my rock and my soft place to land, and my wonderful Master and Owner. You fulfill me as a woman and as a submissive Master. I don't think I'll ever find another man that meets all my need the way you do. You have done so much for me, and continue to do so much for me. I love you more than anything My Love With love and devotion, your slave, Krissie In response to my card, my wonderful Master sent the following: YOU HAVE EARNED YOUR STATUS AS MY EROTIC TROPHY SLAVE ONCE AGAIN... This past month was indeed tumultuous for us. The concept of a Master/slave relationship which was hierarchial caught you off guard after all of our years together and you strongly rebelled and caused me great pain and internal tension. Your fears, and perhaps your past experiences, allowed your thoughts to get twisted - to become 'flawed.' It took time for you to realize that any D/s relationship, by definition, was not an equal partnership, that there was a trusting, yet definitive asymmetrical role each partner plays in such a relationship... that the Master and Owner has the final word on everything. When you fully embraced that proposition, our relationship healed and has been the better for it. I love you and will always love you. I will always be devoted to you. I need you in my life. Even in your darkest moments, I will never let you go. While on your kneees and vulnerable, take your rightful place in my life again as my esteemed erotic trophy slave. Master Richard

Regaining My Esteemed Erotic Trophy Slave Status

Back in August of 2010, Master and I had an official collaring ceremony and I became his erotic trophy slave, a title I was very proud to earn, but that title also came with the responsibility of being the best slave possible, obeying all of my rules, giving Master complete trust, obedience, and respect at all times.

Throughout the course of my relationship history with my Master, I have learned to be accepting of things I never thought I would be because of negative experiences in the past, but the hardest thing for me to accept has been that a D/s relationship is, by it's very nature and definition, a hierarchical relationship, and I fought very hard against that.

I have see-sawed on the issue quite a bit over the last few months, at times I thought I was in complete agreement with the idea, but then irrational thoughts and fears would enter my mind and I would yank back and rebel against it.

This month, I took Master to his very breaking point on that issue and he gave me two options: to completely accept the notion that our relationship is a hierarchy or to find another Master. I chose to accept.

However, I had hurt and disappointed my Master greatly by revolting against the hierarchy, and as such he felt that I was no longer worthy of the designation of "erotic trophy slave" and would have to earn it back.

Since that time, I have worked diligently to be the best slave possible to prove to my darling Master that I am worthy of being his esteemed erotic trophy slave and today he returned that designation to me.

Punished by the Masseuse

On Tuesday, April 24th, Master sent this slave to her masseuse and wax technician, Dana, to be punished.

Master offered this slave to Dana to be spanked and forced to service her.

The following is an in-depth After Action Report of that event:

Good evening Master,

Your slave girl just returned from her encounter with Dana.

Your slave girl dressed in a collar, shields, shelf bra, tight white blouse tied off under her tits, a super short plaid pleated skirt, thigh high white hose, 5 inch black heels with an ankle strap. Your slave had a vibrating egg in her ass and a vibrator in her cunt.

Your slave put her hair in high pigtails and put on a lot more make up than usual. Your slave wore her dress coat from her room until she arrived at Dana's. Of course your slave sat with her bare ass on the seat in the car.

When your slave arrived, she removed her coat and went and knocked on the door, Dana answered the door looking like a Mistress straight out of a porno. A black corset that really showed off her tits and waist, a tiny black thong, thigh high black leather boots, her hair back in a tight ponytail.

She looked me over for a long time, forcing me to stand on the porch for anyone passing by to see before finally inviting me in. She said she was pleased with how my Master had dressed me.

She said I must have been a very bad girl for my Master to think up such a humiliating punishment, but that she was all too happy to punish a disobedient slave like me. She said she'd been hoping to get her hands on me since the first time she waxed my cunt.

She forced me to get on my knees, saying that slaves should not stand in the presence of their betters. She forced me to kiss and lick her boots and then to beg for her to punish me for being such a defiant little slut as she put it.

She forced me to beg again and again until it was good enough for her, she then walked across the room and sat in a wooden chair and had me crawl to her, she forced me over her lap using my ponytails as leverage. She then lifted up my skirt and wasted on time in spanking my ass, and she hits hard. She spanked my ass at least 200 times on each cheek with her hand. I had 500 cums at 1190 during the spanking Master.

She said she'd never seen a whore get off on pain like I do. Once she'd firnished spanking me, she pushed me off her lap and had me kneel between her legs, she removed her thong and had me lick her cunt until she'd cum 5 times.

When I didn't lick her the way she wanted, she'd hit my sore ass with a crop.

Once I'd made her cum 5 times she had me stand and remove my blouse, skirt and bra. She slapped each tit 10 times and scolded me for wearing bra, saying that good sluts don't wear bras. She then harshly fonded my tits and nipples before running her hands all over the rest of my body. She ran her hands over my cunt and placed her fingers into my soaking wet cunt. She tweaked my clit and pinched it hard. She ordered me not to cum while she played with my body.

She then stuck her fingers in my ass and started finger fucking my ass, after having removed the egg. She said that my ass was too tight and needed to be fucked, so she fucked my ass with a strap on, and I had 400 cums at 1180 Master.

After she finished fucking my ass, she had me get dressed and sent me home, saying she hoped to see me again

with love, your slave

An Earth Shattering Erotic Experience

On Wednesday, April 25th, this slave had a very intense pain/cum session.

Earlier that day, as part of an ongoing punishment, this slave's nipples were stretched very severely. That night as Master was fucking this slave, he again stretched this slaves nipples severely and flogged this slave's cunt.

As a result, this slave went into a deep level of subspace and had very intense orgasms. Breaking all previous records.

This slave then experienced subdrop as a result.

This slave wrote Master the following note as a record of the event:

Good evening My Darling Master,

Your slave girl was in a world of her own for the last 30 minutes or more, a world centered around pleasure in pain in deep, deep sub space Master.

Your slave had 1000 cums at 1250 Master.

I am afraid I will drop Master

with love, your slave

An Entry from Master Richard

My Slave:

I met Krissie about 3 years ago. I fell in love with her almost immediately. I love everything about her. I love her completely and care for her spirituality, her health, her body, her academic needs, her career, her family and of course her erotic submissive needs.

My slave has an extraordinary tolerance for pain. She gets off on pain. She gets off on humiliation. She gets off on obeying me and being submissive to me. I require her to proffer homage to me daily, to exercise vigorously and regularly, and to excel as a student

She can be a willful women and has a tendency to show a rough edge. When she pushes my limits, I punish her. And I make her suffer from time-to-time just to test her.

I flog her cunt, cane her ass, cane her tits, cane her inner thighs, and I spank and stretch her nipples,

She wants me to control her, and I do. She wants me to control her body. I control when, and if, she cums, where and when she gets to piss, what she wears, how much she weighs, her hair style, and more.

I have proscribed a demanding early morning ritual for her to keep her mind attuned to the fact that her body is mine and that she is my erotic slave, not my sycophant, but my thoughtful lover and partner.

I need her and love her to pieces, and I always want her to be personally fulfilled and happy.

Master Richard.

An Erotic Experience at Victoria's Secret

Recently Master had this slave go to Victoria's Secret for a shelf bra fitting. Master used this event as a humiliation task for this slave, and sent this slave with welts on her tits as well as marks over her tits and cunt.

Below is the After Action Report from this experience:

Good afternoon Master,

Your slave also went to Victoria's Secret today for a bra fitting.

Your slave found the best looking associate Master, also the one closest to her own age, and asked her to fit her for a shelf bra.

Since your slave was wearing a dress she had to take it off and the associate was able to see this slave's entire body.

The sales associate was quite taken by your slave's nipples, and asked if she could touch them, and your slave said yes. She was quite timid and touched them very softly, but your slave told her that she could be rough with them if she wanted so she pinched and pulled them a bit.

The associate asked how your slave had gotten her nipples so long, and your slave told her through stretching but didn't go into more detail than that Master.

The associate told your slave that she had one of the nicest set of tits and best looking cunts she had ever seen,

She was also quite taken by your slave's use of the waist cincher and how small your slave's waist is.

The associate had your slave try on quite a few shelf bras, your slave could tell the poor girl was desperate for a large sale, but your slave only purchased one Master.

with love and devotion, your slave